Writing frustrations

[citruzy]

I am a bad writer.

Whenever I try putting my thoughts and feelings into words my mind just blanks out. It doesn't even make sense, since I'm not one of those people who thinks in concepts, I have a constant monologue going on in my mind at all times. The problem is that this constant string of thoughts tend to be incoherent and lack a natural flow that actually looks good when written down. My words and sentences come in little spurts with no clear direction, and it's really hard to find the beginnings and endings which I need to connect. It's no wonder that Twitter's character limit felt like a comfortable crutch for me to lean on.

Now, I don't know if I gravitated towards Twitter because of this predesposition, or if I developed this way of thinking because of my getting used to the Tweet format. Either way, Twitter is truly a detriment to the me who wants to become a better writer and a more eloquent speaker. There is an immediate gratification to instantly getting out your thoughts to the world, much like reacting live, instead of just sitting down and being alone with them for a while, letting the ideas and arguments and conclusions form and develop naturally and only then writing them down in a longer, more detailed, more well explained post.

I am actually quite jealous of the people who were able to use forums, Livejournal, and even Tumblr as their main forms of social media, what with their lack of character limits inspiring people to write long detailed essays on say, a really good show they just watched. While I cannot be sure that growing up on these sites would have turned me into a more articulate person, it would have at least made me try.

But this Dreamwidth account is me trying. Trying to regain all the literacy I lost to the instantaneous communication that Twitter provided. (lol that sounds so dramatic I just want to write better, literally that's it)

Comments

[citruzy]

Ahh, I don't think you would be fond of my requests as I'm primarily an idol fan. I actually found your account through your post about why you won't type idols (I was looking for interesting posts about idolism and the idol industry and such). It was great and I do sort of get why you would feel that way. Most idols can be really cookie-cutter, especially since they try to appeal their good sides to the public. I am curious though, as to what material you base your typing off, considering simple public political figures don't have much of a persona, as say, celebrities? Since, they're mostly what you type it seems.

[legofmutton]

This is a really fascinating question, thanks for asking! I type more than political figures. I mostly type people when I find them interesting, or when they remind me of someone I know (this indicates they're the same type, or neighboring types.) For example, my psychiatrist's speech patterns, tone of voice, posture, physiology reminded me of Jodie Foster (actress) and Fei-Fei Li (artificial intelligence scientist), both of whom I thought were ENTJs, but needed confirmation to be sure. My pinned post talks more about my typing process, but not sure if it's very helpful or makes things more confusing.

I originally embarked on the process of typing idols because I wanted to see how different types could comport themselves while doing the same task (K-pop idol-ing LOL.) Most idols seemed ES__ (I could probably get some EN_P types if I searched enough), so not enough type variety to keep my attention. People who choose to be famous, and are successful at it, are generally ES__ types (more relatable to a mass audience, usually less guarded and comfortable commanding attention.)

I wanted to conduct a similar experiment (how differently do types approach a similar task/public role?) and see how genealogy could affect the results, so I chose the British royal family. I wanted a challenge! They do have personas, but the phoniness and canned answers decreased in proportion to their fame/status. They're not political figures so much as political figureheads. The members who were born into their family, and inherited their royal title, were diverse in terms of type, but the ones who married into the family (and chose fame... notoriety... etc.) were again ES__ types. For my next project I am typing another political family, but once I'm done with that I'll see if I can get into j-pop! I want to see if the differences in culture will change the way I view their idols, and I also want a crash course to the AKB system.